Planet Bloggerian » Guido » April 2008

It’s suddenly high-school all over again.

Well, it’s in high school the last time I participated in radio phone-in quiz. It was quite fun back then.

10 years later today, this morning I managed to get through on the morning show quiz. Didn’t win, though, but enough to get me excited for an hour or so.

** wow it’s finally raining. Last night’s weather was a killer. Too warm that even a certain aged  mother in the house slept on the floor.

As a self-declared classic-movies fan, I am ashamed I couldn’t formulate a Jeopardy question to which the answer is: “Archibald Leach, Bernard Schwartz, Lucille Fay LeSueur”.

Apparently, I didn’t watch that many classic movies as I thought I have.

Even Cliff’s attempt is better than mine, “Three persons who never entered my kitchen?”. LoL.

Nothing bad will happen (hopefully), but I’m in such a deep shit this week.

Now this is what I call stress. A real one.

** This is the kind of things that contribute to the Restless Leg Syndrome I’ve been having since I don’t recall how long. I have never given much thought about the “leg-shaking” thing. A lot of people say it’s a bad habit. Four out of six colleagues told me to stop everytime. Personally I believe they’re stopping me doing that has more to do with the annoyance caused by the shaking, rather than the tendencies of me going mad (which, I’m not sure in a joking way or not, a doctor friend of mine said, that RLS might be on the step 2 out of 8 on the road towards what, insanity?).
Whatever.

** In fact, there’s been a shift in my attitude towards pressure. Deadline pressure, that is. Tight deadline usually works in a rather positive way, forcing us to do things in a more efficient way (subject to the nature of the things, of course). I used to be able to take advantage of that. Over time, there’ been a shift in me. Put under pressure in the face of tight deadline, I’d just give up. To think that there’s too huge a task to be performed within a limited time, I’d just buckle. Too much, too much, I couldn’t do it.

No matter how they say that we should think in terms of smaller components and accomplishments, I just couldn’t seem to exclude the big, overbearing objective. That’s why I’ve always given up on many responsibilities coming my way.  Without deadline, I’m able to do things good enough to my satisfaction. But I have a slight tendency of a perfectionist, so without deadline I would take my time to polish and re-polish things over and over again. In the end, the satisfaction is not worth the inefficiency, thus raising the dissatisfaction back up. (I can’t get no) satisfaction.

Basic. These are all basic. I need to get back to the period of time when we’re taught basic stuffs.
Apparently years of learning can be unlearned unconsciously.

well. to say my baby is coming is a bit over the top. So…, yes. And no.

Yes, the office had ordered a new server machine, and today it’s delivered. There it is, the new baby. Immediately installed CentOS on it, but further configuration will have to wait until weekend or next week. Kinda feels good to have a few servers around me (literally, because my designated desk is in the server room!), I feel so… admin!, whatever that means.

The other baby, not mine. My housemate will today be coming back to this country, with her newborn infant. Not really newly born, she gave birth in Feb.

On a different note, or maybe related, a letter has found its way to our letterbox, informing that there will be an increase in the flat-rental coming July, a predicted but not expected, whopping crazy way too much 54% increase. That could translate to a $150-$200 increase on my end. I’m beginning to think it might not worth it, what with the remote workplace and all.

So, I’m pondering the idea to find a new place, preferrably in North area. Actually, _must_ be in North area. If I’m able to find one, there will be 16 extra hours every week. To think that I could use that many hours to rest and relax, the effective extra hours could easily be double-accounted.

Anyway, we’ll see.